The Waystead is a Hermitage of the Lindisfarne Community, established with the intent to foster the love of God in the world. Our resolve is to follow the Way of the One in Whom we live and move and have our Being.
We trust that by thoughtfully founding, and steadfastly keeping, a dwelling place and setting it apart as a place of prayer, reflection, and contemplation, we will be able to hold onto that resolve.
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As You Have Trusted
Psalm 102 (Coverdale)
14For your servants
love her very rubble, * and are moved to pity even for her dust.
2 Kings 19:1-20 (CJB)
20 Then Yesha‘yahu the
son of Amotz sent this message to Hizkiyahu: “Adonai the God of Isra’el says:
‘You prayed to me against Sancheriv king of Ashur, and I have heard you.’
1 Corinthians 9:16-27 (CJB)
24 Don’t you know that
in a race all the runners compete, but only one wins the prize? So then, run to
Matthew 8:1-17 (CJB)
13 Then Yeshua said to
the officer, “Go; let it be for you as you have trusted.”
It occurred to me today that it’s likely that I’ve been
doing a bit of compartmentalizing. Since there are three readings and a psalm
in the Daily Lectionary, I usually take each one separately, (often neglecting
the Psalm) find the resonant phrase, and then write down my reflection of each
Something moved me to review some sources on the practice of
Lectio Divina, and as I was pondering the steps (reading, reflecting,
responding, and resting) they rolled over and showed me a new face. This new
face is watching me with great interest to see what I will end up writing on
this page. Let’s see….
Loving the rubble, walking in the ruins, sitting down in the
middle of the ghost town’s dusty street. Pitying the echoes from the empty
houses, the weeds growing through the cracks in the walls, the dry grass
shaking in the wind.
The prophet sends the message no matter whether we want to
hear it. The prophet is the one who says, “God has heard you.” So what does
that imply? I think this depicts the prophetic voice perfectly. Prophets hear
the voice of God, but that isn’t what makes them prophets. What makes them
prophets are the words they distill from that silent surge of understanding; the
unrelenting messages they are moved to give. They are called “prophets” by the ones
who withstand their ferocious empathy, who squirm in the glare of their
ruthless insight. I don’t think the title “prophet” is intended as a
Run to win! I’m sure that Paul is not talking about
grace, or salvation, or winning a prize reserved for only one winner. No, the
clue is in his phrase, “Run to win.” He’s not really talking about prizes at all.
He’s talking about the disciplines of practice, as an athlete would train for a
race. He’s comparing Christian practice to physical conditioning. He makes the
point very clearly that the goal is different, that the athlete’s physical conditioning
is a temporary thing for a short-term goal, but the Christian’s spiritual
conditioning is an ongoing work from an eternal perspective.
“Let it be for you as you have trusted.” Yowza!
The problem with the word “faith” is that it’s a noun. You can’t
say, “Faith me.” On the other hand, you can
say, “Believe me,” and “Trust me.” Verbs are good. Adjectives too. If you turn “faith”
into an adjective, you get “faithful,” along with some nifty synonyms like “loyal”
and “steadfast.” I think I’m onto something here.
So I’m going to go with the flow. Literally.
The sorrow of still loving something that has been destroyed, walking
through the desolate remains—
flows into flinching at the harsh significance of the message “God has
heard you” –
flows into the need to run to win even though there is no prize –
flows into letting everything be ‘as I have trusted’—
flows back around again—
to sitting in the voiceless rubble listening to mercy shaking the grass
in the wind.
(I originally wrote this in November 2015, after reading a book on understanding Jesus's teachings in the light of first century Jewish Temple mysticism. I had been struggling with the cannibalistic implications in the Eucharist of "eating Jesus's body and drinking his blood." It was such a relief to discover this interpretation which connects neatly with the way his disciples would likely have understood the language Jesus was using.) Eucharist A little bit of research on the internet produced a
description of Jewish ritual sacrifice in the time of Jesus. A person, say a
woman named Sarah, offers a goat. She buys it and takes it to the priest at the
Temple. He examines it to see if it is “perfect,” i.e. healthy and unblemished.
He then takes it and slits its throat with the ritual words, “This is Sarah’s
blood.” The meaning should obviously be, that this is the blood belonging to
Sarah and offered on her behalf. The blood would then be poured out at the base
of the …
almost always have a feeling of discontent (dukkha) when I encounter a way of
looking at the world that exhorts me to define suffering as victimization. This
way leads people to become social activists, fighting “injustice,” “poverty,”
“violence,” and causes them to want to change “society” to make it a 'better'
place. This way of thinking seems to me to miss the point. I call it
"bootstrapping,” because it makes me think of the old saying that describes a
certain kind of futility by the phrase, “trying to pull yourself up by your own
bootstraps.” It can't be done. It seems to me that people often perceive
concepts like "injustice" as entities in their own right, with a kind of
inimical but impersonal life of their own. This leads to the belief that ideas
can do battle in the arena of social activism and when righteousness is the
victor, then "society" will change for the better. I see this as a form of
delusion, and exactly the sort of error tha…
I've been thinking a bit about emotional states and
reactions, trying to figure out if what I personally experience is at all
relevant to what other people experience. I've come to believe that it doesn't
matter. I know I do a thing that everyone else also seems to do, and that is to
think about everything only in reference to myself. I've learned over and over
that doing so doesn't improve a thing, and I've even come up with a name for
it: "bootstrapping." As in 'trying to pull yourself up by your own
bootstraps.' Here's what I've provisionally understood: Attempting to evaluate
or make judgments about a thing, or a state, or a condition, based on nothing
more than a set of ideas that I have about it (especially any ideas that
include the concept of "should") is utterly deluded. If the condition is entirely internal, and my ideas about it
also have no outside referents, then any attempt to change the situation by